"It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life, starts with goodbye"

This past week has been a really big week on learning life's lessons, and I've been learning them in a hard way. For those of you that don't know, Bryon and I broke up. We actually broke up in January, but many of you I was afraid to tell because I wasn't sure what you would think about the fact I was still moving out to Hawaii. Moving out to Hawaii, after breaking up, I knew was going to be a growing experience for me in so many ways. I knew it would be hard but Bryon and I really wanted to do the whole friends route--best friends even. I mean after 5 years of putting yourself into a relationship the last thing you want is to just walk away. Bryon just was not sure I was the one but that was okay with me. I knew that I wanted him to be happy because he's like family to me. I mean that's what you always want for the person you love--right? Complete happiness even if it means you yourself has to put your feelings to the side. However I guess our friendship was unable to be black and white as I would have liked it to be. A few things went down this week and now I'm not sure where I stand. Within this whole week I have found out who my true friends are, and have discovered that I need to start looking out for myself. See I hadn't been doing that since Bryon and I started to date. I wanted him to be happy all the time even if that meant that my feelings were pushed aside. Now I am starting to realize that I deserve to be happy, to be treated like a person that is good inside and out, to be loved, and be respected. I just want to thank all of you that have had my back and have helped me come to the realization that I am a deserving person of love and good friendship. I am now realizing that I need to say goodbye to my old life, except of those few individuals who have my back all the time, and become the person I am meant to be. I know I can be strong and can do this but it will take time. I hope that all of you that care will be there for me (and I know you will ). I do not blame Bryon for this bump in my journey, I do not regret a single day or moment with him. We have had many memories, both good and bad, who have helped me become the person I am today. I will always love him dearly and hope that he is happy in all aspects of his life--including love.
Love you all,
Aloha,
Jenna

I know there's a blue horizon, Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.--Carrie Underwood